"Cut a chrysalis open, and you will find a rotting caterpillar.  What you will never find is that mythical half creature, half caterpillar, half butterfly, a fit emblem of the human soul for those whose cast of mind leads them to seek such emblems.  No, the process of transformation consists almost entirely of loss."  -Pat Barker

Two Notes:

The smallest child comes to my bed early in the morning and if I am still asleep he is sad.  He cries and I pull him on top of me and he says “no sleep mumma!” and keeps weeping and his tears are in my mouth.  It is one way to wake up – with salty tears in your mouth.

There is a mother I watch who has a child on her lap and she holds the child’s long hair in her hand.  It fills her fist, a limp rope.  The mother is absent minded, exposing the child’s neck is an unconscious instinct.  Cool the child: lift the hair.  Like other parent-child touching, this gesture is so soft and common it is maybe unfelt, like ones own sweater against ones own skin.  But watching her I wonder how long it has been since I have felt that exactly: the weight of someone else’s hair in my hand.  A long time.  I would like to feel it now.  Today I felt the weight of a handful of cilantro. I wonder if it’s similar.

9000 km

Film from a Road Trip up the California Coast this February

Pentax K1000
(Except: #30, 33 and 38, which were taken by Ives, age 4, disposable camera)

- Some writing about it: here.
- Also: time lapse here.